I recently discovered that I am the woman of my dreams; that I am my own outcome. What a relief, for me and everyone else involved, too.
I invite you to tally your day and make a list of how you are the man/woman of your dreams. Just today. Only include the things you did, or thought, or noticed – not the things you didn’t. You can forgive those ‘what ifs’ or those ‘should haves’ to simply being human. I promise you. The day could not have gone any other way than how it did.
So, tally up.
Here is how I was the woman of my dreams today:
I saw a movie with my mother. We shared popcorn, and a smile.
I wrote a kick-ass cover letter for a job application – straight from the heart.
I sang loudly in my car.*
I cried inside my open heart.
I took a walk along the river and paused: to watch without expecting to see. I bore witness to ducks chortling, and the sky changing.
The kick-ass cover letter I wrote was lost somewhere in Word, and I messed up the online application so I am locked out from applying for a dream job. I acknowledged that I am doing the best that I can. And that I will continue to, trusting that what comes back is exactly what needs to. Thank you.
I have my 12-gauge shotgun (Amelia), my yoga mat, and a pink hand-knit sweater in the backseat of my car.
In meditation, I felt that I am enough, right now. That despite popular opinion, there is nothing else to achieve, because then there would always be more (which is less).
I heard raw guitar, and saw hair dance, at my first metal show. I danced, and stomped (I’m not sure that is metal-dancing-etiquette), and felt soul. I felt how we are still one.
This moment is the outcome. How full and how perfect –
yes, and thank you.
*(See Gaslight Anthem, 1,000 Years; or really the entire Get Hurt album)